I AM
WOMAN
VII. The Descent
I’m lonely today
I love me
Truly I do
It’s perfect company
When I’m with you
But I can’t help but feel
The moments could be shared
A little more laughter
Some warmth in my bed
Because I am discovering
The wonders of this world
And photos don’t capture
The stories been told
I guess I just wish
That someone was here
But instead I'm alone
With my best friend
Fear
VIII. Fear of Persecution
I was afraid of my power
What fate I might bring upon myself
By releasing it into the known
Was it written by my own hand?
Is there a choice?
Has there ever been
Since I fell into Yours?
Will I depart from this world
With sorrow?
Or will I move with Grace
Having said all there is to say
And why, Beloved
Does the thought of coming home
Make me feel so afraid?
IX. Betrayal
I felt you all, you know
As I held you in my womb
Every woman, every girl
Who has been betrayed
Your tears streamed down my cheeks
Your hearts beat so quickly in my chest
I almost threw it up
The pain
The nausea
And I’d do it again
So you won’t have to
But how lucky I am
To be on the other side of it
While so many of us approach it slowly now
Entirely unknowing
The trust streaming freely from our open hearts
It can be snatched away
In a second
Lock the castle gates tonight
Seek your truth
Is everything as it seems?
Have them prove it to you
Please, promise me this
X. Open Heart
I am trying
To crack my heart open
Do you think
You could give me a hand?
My mind is expressing
All sorts of deceit
And making me feel things
I don't understand
The trauma is real
But I thought it was healed
It has gone so much deeper
Like it never ends
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But you cracked me open
One time and again
My King, my teacher
My love and my friend
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So I open my heart
To you now my love
I know you'll be there
When the seas get rough
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And I get what is happening
Wouldn't mind if it stopped
These triggers, this silence
The slowest of clocks
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I'm trying to surrender
Believe me I am
But my body craves this love
Dealt straight from God's hand
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I guess I became
Devoted to you
But it's too hard not knowing
If you feel this way too
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XI. My Truth
I cannot be sorry
That when I pass through
Every non-truth
Gets pulled up from the roots
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It is just my purpose
It's what my Soul chose
I have learned to love it
It's now all I know
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And because of that
My life here is pure
No drama. Firm boundaries
Can't have that anymore
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I know this might look
A little bit harsh
But if you feel what I feel
You'll know why it's hard
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To witness one surface
And beneath it see lies
A smile or a laugh
That didn't quite reach the eyes
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The subtleties tell
A story too real
The energy confirms
Everything I feel
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And I can't look past it
No not anymore
Cos Truth is my essence
It's what I came here for
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